Art,_sports,_and_integrity.cda

The story of the three brothers in Harry Potter. I think this is has a good moral

Substack.mp3

I wanted to write essays on Substack, but I can't bring myself to start. It's because it's too busy, and I don't feel comfortable with posting. I've noticed that I'm like this on social media as well. When I had my old Instagram account. It was so busy and a space where I felt so seen by everyone in my social life that I felt uncomfortable posting and second-guessed everything I posted. The new one is a lot better. I feel I can post what I want more, without imaginary scrutiny. It's all made up, but it still made a difference. I also like the things I post, and have gotten over the 'no likes' insecurity barrier. I'm just basically able to post on dead platforms.

Having others do your conceptual work.mp3

I watched a documentary on Yinka Shonibare, and when I saw that he has others making the work for him on his conceptual ideas to make it a reality. I thought about my own (I guess) fantasy on the idea that I would be very successful one day and have a studio 'corporation', same as Tracey Emin. I don't think I want to be so successful that I would wind up having this set up. Similar to people imagining they've won the lottery, I imagine, 'wouldn't it be great to be selected for the Venice Biennale UK pavilion one day to show my work and represent the UK' - and then I think, I wouldn't really want that for myself, because that's a lot of pressure and work behind the scenes. 

It isn’t what I truly want.mp3

Maybe I'm just lazy, but would I really want to have obligations like this? I mean, it would be great if I did, but I don't think I'd enjoy that. I think the people living vicariously through me would enjoy it more. I just like doing what I'm doing now if I'm honest and invisible to the world. Maybe that's precisely why people love to live vicariously through celebrities, so we don't have to go through the pain of being famous, and just cherry-pick the 'best bits'. I think Alain De Botton said something about it being unhealthy to seek fame. https://youtu.be/9wOPmmV_Izo?si=g7Wv8bpwKwAreL2N  13:40 - Tracey Emin said she felt trapped, but she can't complain because she put herself in it, and when she talks about her obligations in that video (7:25). Maybe people realise it, but by then it's too late. Agnes Martin left to be on her own at the height of her career. She felt this and didn't like it, so she left.

This was a sketchbook that I binned. One of the lecturers tried not to laugh when I showed this. I don't think I'm hireable. I’d get exploited by the patriarchy but not hired. Sounds like the historical trope of men sleeping with women but not marrying them. 

Maybe not having a key famous artist from this generation is us as a society learning from our mistakes. But I guess some people ‘have to take one for the team’, because otherwise you get only people like Trump who become the centre of attention.

I was crediting Birmingham Banners under my artwork on my website, because it's just what I'd like to do. I think if I had other people working on my conceptual ideas, I'd like to have their authorship on the work.

Sports and art.mp3

My dad has given me a ticket to the football match this Sunday in an away game. So I'm watching it with them. I have no interest in football, but I'm going to use this opportunity to look at the intersection of sports and art. I think the common thing that links the two is the integrity behind it. What makes good sportsmanship? And how can this be cross-pollinated into art? Can good sportsmanship make the art field, where creative competition is happening, a better place?